So here's something i found. yeah...

Boy: I don't mind what it is. Your hurt on the inside and need someone to help you stand back up.

Girl: no you don't know...
you can't possibly know that I intend to hurt myself I intend to let myself become destroyed from the inside out. You can't possibly know that I intend to crush everything precious to me to make myself lose it all. You can't possibly know that I intend to destroy all of the columns that destroy me save one...

Boy: Your heart was broken was it not.

Girl: You can't possibly know how much I hate myself right now, how much I want to destroy myself, How much I want to make myself hurt. Soon I will go back to normal. I will long for everything I want to destroy, but I can't let that I happen. I want to hurt myself so bad that I can't get up again. Recently, everyday I'm reminded of how much I've hurt others I'm reminded of how incompetent I am as a friend. I am disgusting, detestable. I'm weak. I keep moving on and forgetting those who were once near me. I can't live in the past. None of my attachments are strong enough. I can't even make myself stay there remembering. My resolve is weak. My determination is weak. I can't even stand up and walk on my own. My feelings are weak. My emotions are weak. I am weak. I am pathetic. I am not even strong enough to care. I'm apathetic. I am not strong enough to be compassionate. I want to say that I am lonely and I am scared. I am blind. I can't even see all the people who care all around me. I'm a thorn, I just keep hurting the people around me. I keep hurting the people closest to me. I am deceptive and manipulative. I use ppl like tools. I don't care about them. I am selfish.
All I care about is me. I need to hate myself, punish myself. I am a weed. Weeds must be pulled out, eliminated, killed, punished tortured, hated before I hurt others. Weeds only hurt. My name is a flower. My name is Jasmine. But i'm not the pure white jasmine the true jasmine. I'm a false jasmine filled with poison nectar a Carolina Jasmine, Gelsemium sempervirens, but even then I'm overrating myself... It's only rare moments like these where I finally learn to care. It's these moments in which I really learn to hate myself.

Guy: Pour your feelings into me. Let me take away all your misery.

Girl: I might. I don't know what will happen. I might try to make you go away too. They're all leaving... Or rather, I'm letting them go. I started to drive them away, I did drive some away, but the others, I'm just letting them drift away... Maybe it's better this way, but it still hurts to let go. I'm afraid of being forgotten. I'm afraid of being alone, but to be forgotten, to be alone, is probably necessary.

Guy: I'll always be your friend.
No matter how hard you try to push me away I'll always be here for you.

Girl: You can't know that. They all said similar things when I went to them for help, and I believed them... but eventually I did manage to push them away... it was so easy... I didn't have to do too much to make them leave... and they won't ever come back... I just had to annoy them some and they brushed me away... that's all it took... that's all they needed...

Guy: I lost to many friends now I'm holding on by a thread.

Girl: What do u mean?
...unfortunately my resolve is weakening already, but maybe another time when these feelings overwhelm me again I can finally begin to give myself what I deserve. Maybe it will return soon maybe tomorrow. Exhaustion wears away all my resolve and I'll go back to being blank again, but then again... maybe I'll be back soon

Guy: I watched friends die.


PLZ DUN HATE ME FOR THIS THINGY K!!!! I <3 the guy though. ^_^ nice guy...